Hurt

How do you get past a history of hurt. Knowing all people arnt the same. Many years of your life you have been alone. Through time you have felt as a tag along. Seeking that place you belong that place you fit in. What do you do when you find that one??? That one person whom you know with out a doubt is whom GOD has made for you.. You open up your heart pour out your sole, fearing being hurt. Why do you seek the negativity of life.. If she says she loves you why must you question it?? How does one prove love? Must it come by trial by roadblocks?
 Why do we seek to test every thing for its reality? Why must we push away when we want to grasp? Many times we face let downs and experience defeat. But its a matter of how you deal with it from there. I dont know how many will read this but its just a moment in my mind. Seeking to further understand my self
Joshua Christy